One thing that I have not given up on is continuing my CrossFit training. It's funny. Since I have been letting some of my friends and coworkers know (none of which are CrossFitters), I have been getting the same comment, "So you are going to stop CrossFitting, right?" WRONG! CrossFit and clean eating have gotten me healthy enough to be able to conceive. Prior to my training I was overweight and struggling with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) and metabolic syndrome (the precursor to diabetes). I am in the best shape of my life, even better than when I was cheering in college! I have been CrossFitting consistently (5-6 days a week) since August of 2012. My mind, body and spirit are used to it. So why would or should I stop now?!
As time progressed, I suffered from fatigue and some nausea. So I cut my training days down from 6 to 5 days a week. I also started to decrease the intensity as I was good for nothing for the rest of the day after tough wods. I have to admit I was a little bummed that I could no longer perform at the level I had grown accustomed to. At a little over 10 weeks in and 9 pounds gained, I lost my HSPU's and pistols. It was a very humbling experience. Everything I had worked so hard for was getting erased so quickly. I had a mini breakdown. Damn ego!
2 days later was the Friday the 13th full moon, a perfect day to release the old and allow in the new. I made peace with the fact that in order to evolve I needed to let go of my old ways, ideals and body. I offered up my "old life" and became comfortable with the fact that I was pregnant and that things were going to change, but change for the better. Since then I have taken the ego out and I no longer feel bad about scaling wods or my self perceived lack of performance. I now know that it is an accomplishment each and every day that I step inside the box.